The Turning Point

A very renowned artist was being interviewed.


“Your fan following is growing exponentially. How does it feel to be in this place?”

“Well, I feel extremely grateful for these blessings. I am really fortunate that so many people shower so much of love on me.”

“But yours has not been a very smooth journey. You have always been very open about your struggle. From those days, can you recall a particular moment where you felt like you had gained enough confidence and were sure of yourself, after which things changed?”

“Umm.. That’s a great question. To be honest, it didn’t happen that way. There was no such defining moment where I found confidence. There were days back then, when I felt extremely insecure, embarrassed, anxious. At times, I felt really shitty about myself – inadequate, like a loser, like a complete failure. And interestingly, I feel all those things even now. I go on the other extreme too. Sometimes, I feel like I am on cloud 9, on top of the world, feel extremely stable, confident, graceful and grateful. I feel like I have it all and I know it all. And again, I felt all of these things back then too. I swing between these 2 extremes all the time.

And you know… actually, something did change. At some point, I became a lot more comfortable with the spectrum. Earlier, I used to be comfortable with only the so called “positive” feelings or emotions. And a lot of effort went into hiding, curbing, avoiding the other side or just wanting to get rid of the so called “negative” feelings. Now, I can acknowledge and embrace all my emotions. In fact, I feel grateful, as an artist, to have had these experiences. These are the source, the inspiration for a lot of my work.”

Brain in red

The usage of phrases like “making a difference”, “factors that contribute”, “final product”, “adding value”, “division on the basis of” are not very uncommon these days.

A careful look at the words ‘difference’, ‘factor’, ‘product’, ‘adding’, ‘division’ tells us that these are the widely used words of Mathematics. Now the question that pops up is whether their usage in common language is derived from Mathematics or Mathematicians have picked up these words.

“Who cares? Chicken or the egg, don’t know, don’t care!”

“Absolutely.”

But..

One fine day, somebody comes to me and asks, “What do you think adding value to something means?”

“Stupid brain. It just means enriching the quality. The end.”

“Absolutely”

But..

Another day, I am asking myself, “Am I a good child? Am I a worthy citizen of the country? How do I know I am not leaching on the resources alone and not giving back? Am I fulfilling my responsibilities as a human?”

“Bro, you need therapy!”

“Absolutely”

But..

Maybe, if I can understand what “adding value” means, I could do it in its truest sense. Maybe, if I can understand what “making a difference” means, I can do it and be proud of myself.

“Bro, why so serious? Google it, find out and do it.”

“Absolutely”

But..

Internet is full of answers and everyone has something to say about it. Isn’t every company in the world “making a diffence by adding value to their final product while discouraging factors that contribute to division on the basis of gender, caste, religion and region”. Atleast that is what I read on the internet.

“So what?”

So aren’t we living in an ideal world where there is equality, harmony and celebration of diversity everywhere?

“Yeah, right! The other day he got promoted just because he knows how to lick the right spots”

So not an ideal world, maybe! But then everyone seems to know the right thing to do and they claim and seem to be doing the right thing.

“Correction. They are trying to do the right thing with the best they know.”

Over optimistic me : True!
Over pessimistic me: No, they don’t!
Thinker in me : Is it? Do people really think about environment before every action of theirs? Do people think about the impact of their actions on society?

“Dude, I am starting to feel you really need psychiatric help.”

Agree or disagree, many people have thought about it and since these questions are not trending on the internet, these must have been answered somewhere.

“I don’t know. Maybe you are not crazy.
Hey, why don’t we start seeking answers to these and try to give back to the world.”

Naah!

“Why not?”

Because I am tired, we are out of drinks, I have office tomorrow and the kids need me. Good night!