The Turning Point

A very renowned artist was being interviewed.


“Your fan following is growing exponentially. How does it feel to be in this place?”

“Well, I feel extremely grateful for these blessings. I am really fortunate that so many people shower so much of love on me.”

“But yours has not been a very smooth journey. You have always been very open about your struggle. From those days, can you recall a particular moment where you felt like you had gained enough confidence and were sure of yourself, after which things changed?”

“Umm.. That’s a great question. To be honest, it didn’t happen that way. There was no such defining moment where I found confidence. There were days back then, when I felt extremely insecure, embarrassed, anxious. At times, I felt really shitty about myself – inadequate, like a loser, like a complete failure. And interestingly, I feel all those things even now. I go on the other extreme too. Sometimes, I feel like I am on cloud 9, on top of the world, feel extremely stable, confident, graceful and grateful. I feel like I have it all and I know it all. And again, I felt all of these things back then too. I swing between these 2 extremes all the time.

And you know… actually, something did change. At some point, I became a lot more comfortable with the spectrum. Earlier, I used to be comfortable with only the so called “positive” feelings or emotions. And a lot of effort went into hiding, curbing, avoiding the other side or just wanting to get rid of the so called “negative” feelings. Now, I can acknowledge and embrace all my emotions. In fact, I feel grateful, as an artist, to have had these experiences. These are the source, the inspiration for a lot of my work.”

Staring at the roof

Feeling confident right after something good happened to you and feeling low after a bad incident is not very uncommon, I suppose.

Let’s think about it.

Feeling confident, effectively, is a situation wherein your brain imagines situations of positive/desired outcomes of your actions. Why does it happen so strongly after a victory?

One way I think about it is:
Our brain tries to predict the outcome of our actions. There has to be a basis for the prediction. Else, all the possible outcomes would be equally likely. So it uses our past experiences and observations. The past experiences are stored in our memory. The more recent an incident, the higher is its weightage in the prediction. Right after an incident of undesired outcome, the most recent incident ‘biases’ the prediction towards highly undesirable outputs and thus the ‘low’ feeling.
Thinking about a situation where one ‘succeeded’ brings a sense of confidence and thus ‘positive thoughts’ give us strength.

If we think about it, the universe hasn’t changed the way it functions because of one desirable/undesirable incident that happened to a person. So feeling low is just an outcome of relying on a faulty predictive mechanism and can thus be revoked by changing the input.

Apple falling on the ground? Gravity.
Levitating/floating apple? MAGIC!!??

The brain has always seen the objects being ‘pulled’ by the Earth. If the science behind it can be manipulated in a way to force the object to move in the opposite direction, the brain sees something that contradicts its past observations.

BAM…!!!! You have just been tricked.

The inside story

I can ruin your day, your week, your month or even your year.

I can destroy your personality, kill your happiness and break you from inside.

I am a parasite. I can live inside you, be born inside you and survive.

I am fueled and nurtured by you, inside you.

I can hamper your relationships, hinder your actions and strangulate your confidence.

You can try to fight me with all your will and might but you would fail, definitely.

I am impossible to fight, or kill, or eradicate. I don’t exist, I am.

You are human, and I… am DOUBT.

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I am not found anywhere and can be found everywhere.

In the smallest quantity possible if I am adapted, I have an immense power to help you fight the most disastrous of existing and non-existing monsters.

I am the easiest and the most difficult to find.

I am the world you create and I am invisible.

I am the flip side of doubt, it’s divine twin.

I am as powerful as my evil twin in intensity but anti-oriented.

I can make your dreams come true, strengthen your inner self and fill you with joy every day, every minute, every second.

I am the secret ingredient of beautiful relationships, satisfactorily rewarding actions
and the thing called confidence.

I am a very close friend of Love. Together, we create the beauty in the eyes of the beholder.

You don’t have to fight doubt, if I am embraced by you. By the nature of creation, doubt can’t survive near me. It has to be either one of us. Can you get both head and tail on top on flipping a coin? Choose yours.

You are human, and I… am FAITH.
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